Tuesday, June 30, 2015

#last90days Update

Alright, so I blew it in terms of throwing updates here and there on my progress. Actually, after running a PFT back in late April and pretty much already being at my goals I lost all motivation to continue with the goal. I hit 87 crunches in 2:00 min (horrible, 13 under my goal... tip: pace yourself and you will succeed), 24 pull-ups, and an 18:37 three mile run time. I'm not up in arms about not hitting my goal for the crunches or the three mile time: first, last week there was a partial IST held at the recruiting station in which I cranked out 137 crunches in 2:00 min (told you, it's about how you pace yourself); second, that three mile time is coming off of very little base (endurance) so with several months of 20-30 mi/week of running I should see that time drop significantly.

Here are my goals before shipping to boot camp:
150+ crunches in 2:00 min
30+ pull-ups
17:00 min three mile time (I'm at 4600ft elevation for any runners who may be reading this)

The plan:
Finish out last year of college. Graduate. Enlist with the Marine Corps. Ship to boot camp (hopefully May 2016). Be badass enough to be considered for Recon. Attend BRC, become 0321, then go for Raiders (MARSOC). If not Recon then I'll serve in the Infantry for a little bit before looking into a lateral move to Human Counter-Intelligence, but Raiders is still the ultimate end goal in the military for me.

Why military? Why Marines? Well, I've always been drawn to the military; either for biological or evolutionary reasons. I couldn't give a straight answer if I wanted to. I just feel a pull... a calling. Marines because their Principles and Values resemble that of the Samurai and Spartans the most; those two cultures have been major influences on the development of my person. Warrior cultures. Serving others. Live and die by the sword. Come back with your shield or on it. Loyalty. Honor. Courage. Commitment... Physically, I'll be ready. Mentally, I honestly can't say I'll be ready or not. All I can say is that waiting nearly a year for all this to happen will be torture for several reasons. But I'm incredibly motivated right now. Every day I'm investing in myself in the hopes of becoming a better person. We shall see if it pays off.

For anyone who may be reading this...
If I am ever some sort of influence let it be this: never give up. In life we all get knocked down, we all make mistakes, we all have those moments in which we feel like complete failures; that maybe we should just throw our hands up and quit. Don't. Don't ever give up! It's all about your mentality; the perspective you use to look at life. Continue striving. Continue to better yourself. Help others so that they may be inspired in the same way and then return the favor to yet more people. Live with purpose. Make your dreams a reality.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

#last90days Goals Defined

Today is just a defining of my goals for the next ninety days (now 89 I guess). Posting is merely a means of attributing a greater responsibility towards these goals in the hopes of increasing the drive towards actual completion.

For the fitness goals, I figured since I'll be enlisting with the Marines I should make a perfect PFT (Physical Fitness Test) score a priority right off the bat. I've included another goal just for kicks. These goals are:
  • 20+ pull-ups
  • at least an 18 min 3mi run
  • 100 sit-ups in 2 min. 
  • 100 yd walking handstand without stopping (just for kicks)
In regards to my reading goal, I'm looking to read 100 pages a day; this can be fulfilled by books I check out, textbooks for class, scholarly articles, informative PDF's (i.e. if I'm reading to increase my knowledge in some area such as Track and Field, Strength Conditioning, Endurance Training, etc.), etc.

For updates, I'm not exactly sure what to post or how often I will post, yet. But time will tell.



I have a collection of motivational videos I've uploaded to my iPod and listen to know and then. One of my favorite quotes goes like this:

"How much time do you spend working on you? How much time do you spend everyday working on your dream? In the last ninety days, how many books have you read? In the last year, what new skill or knowledge have you acquired? What kind of investment have you made in you?"

For the next ninety days I will be investing in myself like never before. The two major goals right off the bat are general fitness (strength, endurance, physique, etc.) and reading as much as possible. Results will be posted regardless of success/failure. Stay tuned ‪#‎last90days‬

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

What It Is To Want

            One cannot "want" something that he/she can already do for themselves, such as happiness. Happiness cannot be completely "wanted" because it is, for the most part, controlled by the self.
            As an example, take the idea that I “want” to study. If the book I am to read for class is not in my body’s vicinity then I am able to “want” for studying since it becomes something “out-of-grasp” for me; however, if that same book is directly in front of me then it is not a “want” for study because it is a certainty that I can. All I must do is open the book and begin. To “want” something that one is certainly able to do for oneself is a lie to oneself. If the book I “want” to study is directly in front of me then I am lying to myself of such “want” because I merely stare at the book.
            With happiness: If one “wants” happiness then they are presenting themselves with at least a partial lie because happiness is up to the individual. I can make myself happy, I can be happy by my own means. I do not “want” happiness because I am, for the most part, in control of it.

Friday, August 8, 2014

If I were to tell you...

If I were to tell you
Who I talk to
Who I’m friends with
And who I admire…
You would judge me

If I were to tell you
My likes
And my dislikes,
My points of view…
You would judge me

If I were to tell you
My hobbies
And sports,
Favorite books
And people…
You would judge me.

But there’s two ways I can take your judgement:
I can either let it affect me
And infect me.
Changing me from a source without.
Turning me into who I'm not…
Or I can disregard it altogether
And just be me.

You live with one person all your life.
In the end, all the matters is
Can you live with yourself?

Wednesday, July 2, 2014


The stars are shining
But your thoughts are binding

Just let it go
It's not your burden to bear

I swear I care
More than you think I dare

So listen
Tonight's the night

We form a new plan
Take it to action
And say "Yes, I can!"

But know
It's only the start
This is a journey
That will test your heart

Oui, be all we can be
That's all et c'est la vie

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Scholarship Writing

Pick an experience from your own life and explain how it influenced your development.
            I had an orientation leader at Butte College who was one of those eccentric folk you couldn’t possibly forget. Most would characterize his appearance as “hippie” – long beard, old loose fitting clothes, and he was all about peace and love. Even if it was just orientation I wouldn’t have forgotten him, but it just so happened that he was in my first college class too. We spoke often and even had study groups with up to four other classmates. The inspiring part was how he talked to people and how he attacked a subject.
            This guy would not give up on something if he couldn’t understand it. In dialogues, he’s like Socrates but less antagonistic. With subjects/books, he was relentless; sparking dialogues with others who have dealt with the subject and methodically reading every word of every page in a book. My favorite part, though, was our discussions. It was never a mere “what do you believe” and just agreeing or nodding his head to confirm he heard me; rather, he asked questions and drew comparisons. “Why do you believe that?” “Your belief is similar to this.” And it was incredible.
            He was and is my mentor. It was because of him that my interest in education (obtaining knowledge) has skyrocketed, that I don’t just acknowledge I hear people but that I care about what they have to say and wish to fully understand them. He influenced me to love more than I ever had and to share it with everyone. It isn’t any particular experience but the experience of being around him that influenced me.

Describe your most meaningful achievements (drawing from recent work, leadership and volunteer experiences) and how they relate to your field of study and future goals.

            I’ve always wanted to build things with my hands; from scratch with no instructions or pre-made materials. My dad, who was in construction for twentyseven years, had this influence on me. He often took me to the work sight and I loved watching how a lot of land went from dirt to a completed building – the flattening of the ground, the laying of the foundation, the putting up of the outline, then the walls and the roof, and finally finishing touches.
            This last summer, for the first time I was able to really build something of my own; a cabinet. It has four drawers on the lower half, and three shelves for books on the upper half. I used the wood from another over-sized cabinet we had, and cut it to the size I wanted. Most of what I did to build it were things I have never done before, and so it was a completely new experience for me. I learned how important exact measurements are, knowing how much material you have, and the time, focus, and dedication it takes to finish it nicely.
            I am also a track and field coach for a high school. It’s one of the most meaningful if not the most meaningful things I have done in my life thus far. I come out every day trying to influence the student-athletes to better themselves. For the most part, they think we, the coaches, are only concerned with their times or marks or winning meets and championships. Personally, I’m there for them and them only – to see them grow, to achieve, to be the best that they can be, and to transfer the right mentality over into the “real” life as well. Ultimately, it’s about their happiness and making their dreams become reality.